good coffee talks

so finally i bought myself good filter coffee last month, and maybe that's why i come here more often to talk with you. and maybe that's why my talks are longer and more personal. that is good coffee my friend, whoever you are.

hi there. hello.

ooooh, my cat came back by the way. kissed her shitloads. good news my pals. it's so weird how you get attached to beings. cats, birds, humans. my heart pounded too many times, i felt like letting go of everything and sobbing on the floor. maybe this is how my breakups should have felt. oh.

i drank chamomile tea. i did some writing for my projects. it still feels like the world is coming in on me, with all its weight for my mind, all the waters for my tears and all the volcanoes for my heart. cravings of tonight are sour cherry filling croissants and salty cashews. the tummy wants what it wants and it is.. emotional eating.

sometimes i am stable enough to go through a day without thinking on my mistakes and the paths i took overall, but maybe it is not who i am normally. stability is overrated and one must go crazy over things going shit.

in any case, i found good cinema and series made me a bit calm. so, again. let's drown in.

i made a playlist for my breakup. put three songs (yet). i always make playlists when i first meet someone and then my roads diverge with them. how weird of a thing to be doing. it's like getting the songs stained a bit here and there. the stains are permanent, every time you listen to a song they are there. you suck, things suck, this song hurts me.

i love someone now, but the uncertainty kills me. mama likes a bit of clarity.

call me and tell me you love me, wake me up from a dream so i know it's real.

hi there. by-bye!